Well, it’s been a while! Not going to lie, COVID and lockdown scared the shit out of me in the beginning! As many of you know, I already suffer from anxiety. So when this pandemic first kicked off I was one of those people disinfecting everything and thinking the worst! I pulled my kids out of school two weeks before they closed and stopped social visits.
We locked ourselves away in our little bubble and even tried the whole “homeschooling” thing. Not that it was anything I imagined it would be. After a couple of months, the whole lockdown took a toll on my mental health. To top it off, the BLM movement started in the U.K and I found out I was PREGNANT!
Of course, I fully support the BLM movement and I understand why these protests were happening etc. However, finding out I was expecting a baby with everything that was going on in the world was super scary. I had to stop myself from reading the news. It felt like there was nothing positive happening and we all know the media publish stories to scare us.
Around this time during lockdown, our son Connor developed a really high temperature of 39.8 and was very unwell. Of course, with everything going on I wasn’t going to take any chances. We phoned 111 who advised us to take him into the hospital. Needless to say, this was all very scary.
He was only allowed one adult with him, so my husband waited in the car while I took him in. We were put in our own little side room due to his symptoms and didn’t have to wait long to be seen. Luckily, Connor didn’t have COVID but just a “normal” virus. Thankfully, he got over it quite quickly.
Surprisingly, my anxiety took a backseat while all this was happening and I was able to stay calm and be there for my boy. I think it all just takes a backseat when you kids need you.
It got to the point during lockdown, where I felt very isolated and depressed. I had to weigh up the risk of COVID and the risk being locked away from the world was having on my sanity. I started sitting on my doorstep having cups of tea with my neighbours (socially distancing of course) which really helped me feel less alone. VE Day was the first day I really socialised with others, and my mood was so lifted by the community spirit where I live.
Going to my antenatal appointments and scans sucked because my husband wasn’t allowed to come in with me. However, it was amazing to see our baby for the first time! Boris relaxed some of the restrictions so we formed a bubble with my in-laws who are super supportive. We also started meeting up with a few friends for picnics and visiting our local beauty spots. Luckily, we live in a little seaside town so we have the beach right on our doorstep. We also started visiting my Dad again who had spent his time in lockdown creating his own little paradise in his back garden!
It’s now August and things seem to be a bit more normal and lockdown has eased somewhat with the exception of face masks etc. We found out last month that we are having a GIRL! Which I’m over the moon about. I think my hubby was secretly hoping for another boy though! The whole pregnancy wasn’t planned, but I’m a big believer that everything happens for a reason.
We now have something amazing to look forward to even though she’s due 21st December! Our little Christmas/pandemic baby haha! Needless to say, you will be seeing a few more baby-related posts now. But rest assured, I will still be posting the usual beauty, lifestyle and gift guides too.
Chat soon <3